Golden Opportunity

Been thinking about the opportunities that are presented

to me recently. I cant help but think that this is God's test for me. Another personally created little obstacle that he knows i'll have a hard time completing. To many it may be a obvious choice to make. But its dang tough kay!

Golden Opportunities are hard to come by.. saying no to neither is like .. this picture below..

Its not everyday u get opportunities knocking by. I also dunt want to be the silly girl that is in trouble and prays and when God sends so much help in different forms and don't take it cause she was waiting for some dramatic entrance from GOD himself.. then ends up getting a earful from him instead.

Signs like seeing a random guy's shirt spelling out Holiday in Carins Australia and random things like seeing the book in the arts section titled: Going to Live in Australia Guide.. A random taxi's advertisement about Australia.

Maybe i'm not seeing signs that want me to stay in SG big enough. Maybe i'm just blinding them out. Of course i've received endearing looks from the people closest to me. And of course i think the biggest pull is a New job offer in Sg. This new position gives me the scope to help other people communicate better which i enjoy btw and brings me closer to my goal of consulting and educating.

I bet there are people already getting their slippers out wanting to smack me. *hold that though* Dont think i am oblivious to the fact that i'm dang lucky. Seeeee... told u its a different kinda obstacle. Most times if things are sucky my optimism kicks in and i suck it up.. and live it. But when too good a thing comes by.. or rather when choices are tough. It becomes a stumbling block. Uurgh! I know i should be thinking hard about the pros and cons. Dont think i haven't sub consciously. Thinking is easy for me.. Trusting an having faith is the tough bit. I think thats wad i need to learn man..

So i'm concluding... I'm not going to THINK about it.. I'm Gonna Pray about it truthfully and sincerely and madly Pray. And do other things to keep my mind occupied. Which lead me to having this crazy idea which i think i should share with Rev Goh. I found what i can do to serve God. =) Dunno if she is in consensus with my idea but hey.. i'll ask anyways.. very most i'll get rejected.

Feel Good Cry

Feel Good Cry is dang good. With a shoulder to cry on would be better though =)

Just thinking about that makes me feel sane again. And also reminds me the importance and comfort in sharing my thoughts and burdens with God and his favourite people.

Korean influence

Taken from a very smart cartoon website

Koreans guys are uber cute! There .. i said it.. ahah.. I know of too many that will agree. Mum would be the first to jump up and agree. Mum's been snooping around again with her concerned look asking if i have anyone that i like. I think she is feeling abit torn again about me leaving. She 's maybe having withdrawal syndrome again-Its her style. Its a cycle. She gets all excited about my new career path and opportunity.. then when it sinks in that i need to leave for Aussie, she feels that pang of sadness but rubs it away in exchange for a Its-for-her-own-good-and-its-a-good-experience thoughts. Then.. the thought of me actually leaving.. sinks in and gets to her the hard way and thus withdrawal syndrome. There is a up side to this and here it is- After waddling in that stage she gets uber happy when i do .. do well and get settled and she feels .. YES! completed one childs journey.. look at how she's grown.. then she goes and pat herself on the back and goes.. well done self!

Stages of change.... AMazing isnt it. Mum's awesome that way. I am crossing my fingers and hoping i get the same neurotic mum like nurturing technics that will drive my children crazy when i grow up! So fun!

Scared Silly and Mad Crazy

Probably the biggest decision i have independently made yet.

All that talk about you only live once...

...and that opportunity rarely knocks twice-cherish it..

...and that Luck is what happens when opportunity meets preparation. ..

...ARE TRUE.

As i go nearer and nearer to the a new career path..

I feel like i am further and further away from home.

But then there is God's Plan for you and all.. So really the opportunity is just God given. Isnt it?

Daughters..

Been Feeling the Ups and Downs with turbulence much too frequently recently. Beginning to wonder and experience the true meaning of living happily. Much to my dismay, its not the kind of lifestyle i am having now. Just like a flu. I'm sure i'll recover after coming to my senses.

This Book's title is good enough for me to buy it for SAM when he gets pretty daughters.

This song is playing in my mind now. Daughters have such a tough life really. Applause Please!

Daughters by John Mayer

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls are continually changed
And I've done all I canTo stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now I'm left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you doGirls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier onBut boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the guide and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too [x3]

Epiphany alert!

When i want something bad enough.

Take the first plunge into the water.

Then badly start swimming towards the goal. Just keep trying.

Eventually, I'll reach the other side. =)

Now the Plunge. Thats the biggest huddle. I shouldn't be such a WUSS. Right?!

If there were only a pill to be braver!

Afraid of Uncertainty... NOT!

Jesus is the coolest really!

You know i've been reading matthew in the bible recently and in alot of parables Jesus is scolding the deciples that they have little faith. Sometimes, i think we really should be scolded for our lack of faith. I often wish i was braver to overcome all the little problems in my life.

My constant self reminder:

When i get thoroughly drained.

-To pray.. and oddly enough get peace within me and get more energy.

When frustration sets in and the situation is too sticky for me to handle.

-To pray for Calmness and Wisdom to solve

When i feel stuck and lost

-To pray for a push in the right direction

When all odds are against me and i feel stuck in a pressure cooker

-To pray to not use harsh words and have patience that things will unravel to be better.

Just as i feel kinda lost, the daily bread today was talking about HOPE. (See! Its not luck or coincidence... Its planned HE knows you and knows what you need when you need it. =))

Many claim to have hope, but only those whose hope is Christ can claim it with certainty. Hope comes not from strength, intelligence, or favorable circumstances, but from the Lord. As Maker of heaven and earth, He alone has the right to promise hope and the power to keep the promise.- taken from Daily Bread RBC

"The Lord has promised good to me.

His word my hope secures.

He will my shield and portion be,

As long as life endures." -snippets from the song Amazing Grace.