I like my new friend =)

Yesterday i was feeling kinda in the pits. Felt so loved when dear old Auntie Naddy responded to my Facebook sighs. Love ya~ Did i mention i met a new friend! She's giving me so much insight and i love talking to her cause she always never fails to surprise me with her answers. Spoke to Lixin yesterday about my stresses. Guess what! She told me to look at the bible's verse Ecclesiastes 3 :1-8 . Loves..

A Time for Everything

¹ There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

² a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

³ a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

⁶ a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

⁸ a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

She's so wise.. so true(like ce jie says).. and soo cute! I like her! Her responses always never fail to make me go wow.. Just yesterday when i showed her my blog. She commented that i am a sentimental girl. That comment threw me off guard and totally took me back. I've never been called sentimental before. She's so endearing really. She displays a totally different demeanor with her "outside image". Her "Inside image" is just so warm and fuzzy. Come to think of it.. most of my friends are kinda like that. She mentioned that she likes the song 一个像夏天一个像秋天 by Fan wei Qi. I think we are kinda like that.. ahah.. In fact, The other angel is kinda like that with me too. =) They both remind me of the warm brownie and cold scoop of vanilla dessert. Whooo So nice!

Sweet isnt it?

一个像夏天一个像秋天

第一次见面看你不太顺眼

谁知道后来关系那么密切

我们一个像夏天一个像秋天

却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪

我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼

遇见一个人然后生命全改变

原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心塌地

就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰

你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得倾听

我的胸怀志意我的有口无心

我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西

拆穿我留些意怕我忘形

你知道我所有丢脸的事情

却为我的美好形像保密

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心塌地

就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰

你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得倾听

我的胸怀志意我的有口无心

我离不开darling更离不开你

The Guiding Light

After prayer tonight, It suddenly struck me.. that there is a possibility that i have semi accepted GOD through my CCA-Girl Guides. Yes yes.. Laugh all you want.. I was a girl guide! I love camps OKay! I was patrol leader for sunflower group okay!! ahha..

Oddly enough, i thought of the Girl Guide Pledge!

I promise to do my best, To do my duty to God, To serve my country and help other people, and to keep the Guide Law

Amazing huh! God's everywhere in all times!

Time flies..

I suddenly got reminded of my age again. Feeling Pangz of Old-liness like ezema Itching to come out and then suddenly reminding you like an allergy that you are allgeric to time.

Today i just feel rather random. So i thought i'd just share my randomness...

Really Thankful for GOD listening to my prayer. Thank goodness Didi's okay. He really is a pain in the butt. I;m feeling God's presence around me like a big coat of protection. I do know that sometimes when i fall into temptation however, i can feel he is a little upset. But on another day if i make it up to him he forgives me.. then i feel awful that i have sinned. Hee.. Kinda like mum using her guilt trip tactics on me.

I remember looking up the song As the Deer. As i sang it i was like.. Whats this gotta do with GOD. I sorta got a hunch roughly how it might possiblity link up. BUt i wasnt sure, so i searched. This is what i found.

Psalm 42:1-2 prayed,"As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?" This should describe your thirst for God. That your soul-thirst is a sign of soul-growth. Get Thirsty!

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I am feeling rather thirsty for soul food.. so i turned to the Daily Bread, Music and God's Word(later on tonight)

Lately, American Idol Caught my ear.. ahha..

On a Rainy Day like this..

Just when u want to snuggle in bed under the sheets...I had a sudden urge to be domestic.

I went Ondeh Ondeh Making!

Did the whole hauling back the groceries bit and started kneeding.. I only remember making it once. But it looked edible. =)Meeting my guinea pig Lixin later so (*crosses fingers) I hope she finds them edible. Hey! If this works out well i might get adventurous again and try out other dim sum -y stuff.

On another random note, I remember keeping a Prayer Log book after the mission trip for stuff and people i want to pray about. It seems like there is so much stuff to ask for guidance for and so many people that i know need a little comfort from GOD. I'm so afraid if i miss someone out. Plus i really want to pray better so i figured i better do it often-Practice makes perfect. It bugs me that my prayers are kinda long whined and you can significantly tell i can get quite lost and try too hard to remember everything and sometimes i get totally distracted. Uurgh~

I dont know how soon it'll be before i get the hang of things.. but yeah.. I'll get there soon enough~ ( Displaying Glass-is-half-full-mentality)
When my little Ondeh's are done Mum wants to showcase them at Ah mas~ Hurrah!

Ta Dah!~

Thus i conclude,My little domestic Adventure!

Mixed Up Monday

Mondays have always been a trying day for me everyone. Dont you think we all should just face head on in Super opposite mentality to fight off this psychologically draining day? Somewhere during the day this short flash of my new year resolution-( TO RELAX, NOT THINK, WORRY LESS) came flickering like a animated click me banner on a website.

Since i've been terribly swamped with thoughts on how to solve the work issues and overly stressed with womanly problem, i havent been following up with My GOD. I feel awful. =( When Fiona shared her session with GOD while reading the daily bread, I remembered My patient giving me a set of the daily bread somewhere in my room. So i rummaged through and found it. Read it in the morning just like Mushi says. I funny thing is that i do feel better after reading God's word and i feel more reassured. Even though i may not know what is planned out for me yet maybe not until the day is over. It still does bring me alot of comfort.

Besides work stressing me, also other random thoughts also. Hmm.. I must be Post PMS-ing. Cause Sam also triggered a nerve today. I just decided to shove it away, cos it was a Monday. (This rhymes.. how cool is that!) Anyways... I may be over stressing or fussy over nothing i guess. I feel like i'm complaining that there is too much air kinda feeling. Anyways i refuse to fall trap to my Grumpiness and to prove my innate glass-is-half-full attitude, I decided to not show my stressed like a prune face at work as much as i could, talk slowly not like a machine gun on a rampage, tried very hard to go home early so i can have more energy for the next days to come.

Orkut Scraps - Monday Scraps

Quarter life crisis :Scene 1 (Act 2) @ The Airport

So we did a threesome again @ the airport. Nothing short of sharing deep deep... THOUGHTS! of our current plans for the future. Once again an intense session leading to a major hangover of yawns and pangs of headaches. As this lingering feeling of having your head squeezed into a can continued we mentioned about here and there day-to-day events, ephipanies, work,everything else that is still stressing us since our last conversation, 26th year trip, difference between men and women, evaluation of our current well being. Considering that we didnt have a solid agenda written, the above was rather meaty topics.

As we camped at Terminal 3's Kopitiam, mid way after an hour or two.. i realised we were significantly scaring our neighbouring hungry people off. I spotted a raised eye brow and a few head tilts and adjust hair behind ear actions to tune into our conversation. So we talked without restrictions.. inhibited..

As we each blabbered about our day-to-days and each of us concerned about each other's life path.. I think we went into a world of our own, a place somewhere only we know.(WOW~ I cant believe i linked Keane 's song-Somewhere only we know. *Chuckles)

I cant help but applaud our MORE than 10 years friendship and put it on a pretty high pedestal. And yes, i'm sure we are more than doctors for the soul-forever on call, we are more than Charlie's Angels-fighting a ever long battle of good vs evil, we're lifelong friends- The Bao-Ga-Liao kind.

Big Hugs! The Other Angel and the Whiny One!

Random Thought #2

Looking back, I have been talking to God quite a bit throughout the years. (Based on previous blog entries) Amazing isnt it. I'm So glad i was able to see HIS flashing bright lights to guide me to HIM. GOD's amazing!!

I'm Basking in his Glory! Feels so good like Sun tanning!

Afterglow Sunday

Picture Taken from:http://graceevan.org

Sunday's after church activity was a sharing session after the mission trip in 6th-7th March. I wanted to share more when it was my turn but i didnt want to bore everyone with details. Thus resulting in this exclusive verbal vomit for my not so frequent readers.

Other than my the new experience of praying for Poopie(my little Bahasa girl). I felt God using me in many areas. When we were singing the worship songs in Bahasa Indonesian, I never felt shy to open my voice there. Normally, i hate taking center stage or performances, if i have to i'd probably hid one corner that type. But during that moment. I felt it. God's warmth giving me courage.

When we were in church, hearing the voices of the other villages sing along with us and sometimes louder than us. I felt so glad. I could see God in their place too. It was then i experienced God is everywhere. I was so touched. Like what the rest mentioned. You can really understand and see the true meaning of the worship when languages are a barrier.

Also when cejie preached I could feel his words slowly creeping into my heart. And then.. came the waterfall. Cried buckets really. Cause i thought of Poh Meng uncle's similar incident. Thank GOD for his grace on cejie. I remember he mentioned that it was through his prayers and other testimonials that gives him more faith. During his sharing today also i felt his honesty and truthfulness with totally made everyone(i'm sure) feel more relatable and paved the platform for the rest to share their honest thoughts. I thought that was fab.

Also when we were in the hotel where roomie(beverly) had her meetings. I could see how much planning and thought was put into the trip. And i linked it back to the whole morning's happenings with all the youths so fabulously cooperative and taking such leadership roles to that very moment. I also wanted to give them a Big hug! I could really See and feel the love ppl! Felt like a one united people moment.

I really enjoyed the trip and have come back so much stronger in my faith. I can really see the transformations through this journey. Super Duper loved my Buddies! Their just so much fun.. Teasing each other My policeman -weikang and Nurse-Rongguang. Both gave me alot of reassurance in their own way. Did i not mention how our van -mates and driver rocks! They make me so at ease and the sense of belonging. =)

I was assisting Xinyi (Our On-the-Job-Nurse!) to disinfect and apply aneseptic for one kid. I was near tearing when i saw his whole body with that many rashes. It was then the reality of poverty was instilled. Even though i know xinyi was nervous too and kinda lost. I'm glad i was able to remind her about certain things. =) Thank goodness looking after our first aid kit and emergency kits in our clinic paid off. I really hope to be in first aid the next time i go down there. A big part of me wants to organise a team to go for operation smiles. But i dont know if i am brave enough to go ahead as planned. *Silent Prayer~

I enjoyed the trip and also felt little victories along the way. I cant wait for more!

Update of Faith Growing Experience

A whirl wind of things happened the last 2 months of 2010. I felt the Ever Loving God and the Wrath of God (just a tinge) in my everyday life. Experienced his faithfulness and bathed in his glory! Took many leaps of faiths and landed in HIS safe arms. I feel the courage and that feeling again growing within me to trust HIM to guide me as each day passes. As i Pray and Googled about how to pray, I learnt to talk to him and how to honour him. I felt HIM using me to spread the gospel.(Something which i didnt expect would happen that fast, but i'm glad it did.) The mission trip was also fabulous. I saw HIS work through so many people during that journey.

Even though:

Relying and trusting is just so hard for me.

Thinking vs Feeling is obviously not a fair fight.

I 'll stay determined, and focus(cross fingers)

In the past i was Un-consciously Believing that i was just.. Lucky. =)

I'm glad now I am Consciously Aware- That it was all his plan.